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Colorline, Ade and I

You are the saddest thing I have ever had to accept.
You are the saddest thing I have ever had to except.

From This wolf, a novel in poems, a story of impossible love.

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*** and I
Digital photograph

This wolf

new-wolf

From This wolf.

He said, When I search inside I can’t find myself.
He said, In the mirror I am not what I see.

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These wolves
Cut paper collage on handmade paper

 

This wolf

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From This wolf.

I can, and might, count this as my one undying love of this lifetime. I’ve been told this doesn’t have to be true. Sometimes I feel, deep in my bones, that it is. Our connection was not normal. Our connection was not of this world. I lost a lot to *** and this love. Some I needed to lose. Some I did not. What we did not get to do was immerse ourselves fully in this space of deep love. For this chance, I fought hard. This fight, I lost.

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[Image: Chiara Bautista]

This wolf

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From This wolf.

The best reminder I could ever have for this love I lost is to have the line
“you loved a man
with more hands than a parade
of beggars”
tattooed on my body.

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[Image: Kiki Smith. Black heart is mine.]

This wolf

lying_with_the_wolf_ink_and_pencil_drawing_by_kiki_smith_2001

From this wolf.

I can conjure this scene so well. It is one of the pivotal moments in my life. *** at my kitchen table. I am standing across the room, leaning on the large hutch where my tea is. I closed my eyes. I searched inside. I couldn’t find any resistance. I stepped in.

He was right.

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Kiki Smith
Lying with the Wolf
Ink and pencil on paper
2001

This wolf

Ade_2

From this wolf.

You came to me
one way
So honest I caught my breath
for the time it took you to
hand me your love
Your hands, your love, your contradictions, our stars, this wolf
In that order.

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This wolf
Graphite on paper

This wolf

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I am a writing a book!

This wolf is a story about hands, stars, contradictions, and love – an undying and an impossible love.

I write this story from the depths and obstacles of a connection so deep it was bottomless.

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[Image: Handmade paper, automotive wire, and hidden images]